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"Always."
- Professor Severus Snape 



I never thought I'd find myself quietly sitting at 9 pm, tearing up over the death of Alan Rickman. It wasn't as if I was a massive fan of him (eg: watching all his movies). The only movie I ever actually saw him in was Harry Potter. Then again, Harry Potter was what filled my childhood. I grew up watching those movies over and over again. I guess there was just an unconscious attachment towards the character he played; Professor Snape.

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[5 days later]

G'evening, loves. x

Today, I'm in the mood to completely vent about how filled with boredom I am. Honestly, other than watching animes (yes, I watch animes. Psycho Pass & One Punch Man are great ones. Don't judge me.) and eating, I haven't really done anything productive. Oh, I mean other than editing and reediting my personal statement but since I'm done and satisfied with it as it is already, I'm out of things to do.

Guess I should be preparing the multiple number of envelopes I want/need to send out to all the places I'm applying for. Unfortunately, the reference letters I asked for from my past teachers aren't done yet, so I've still got to wait for that. I've still got to print the most recent edits though, so I guess I'll just do that tomorrow. The problem with me is that I get really guilty about using up paper and I don't know why. Whenever I have to print out stuff for like Sejarah (History) Paper 3 and draft letters and stuff, I just get really annoyed at how much paper I'm wasting. I'd rather edit and make sure I'm satisfied with the typed up paper on my laptop before printing, instead of printing multiple drafts. Then again, having a hard copy in hand is a little easier to grammar/spell check as sometime you just miss these kind of things after staring at the laptop screen for too long.

There's this one place I'm applying to that I'm really really really (REALLY) wishing I get. It's somewhere I can take the IB program in KL that actually offers all the subjects I'd like. These past few days leading up to a week have just been me dreaming about getting that offer and frantically trying to make sure that my application letter and other necessities are perfect (or at least close enough). Again, I would've been done and sent the application already if the reference letters were already done. Sigh. I'm just really hoping I get in. But yknow, I don't want to have my hopes too high up, or up at all really because I'm not looking forward to the disappointment if it comes. Still, till then I'm just going to try my best. If you're reading this, please pray I get in okay!! xx





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