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Ohana.

From time to time, I tend to get a little too emotional without any proper reason. As if I'm a winded up toy just waiting for the child to let me go. It's weird, really. Feeling this sense of agony and hurt inside when in reality it's not as if anything unpleasant is currently happening. I'm quite uneasy as well and I can't make out why.

Oh well, I guess honestly one of the reasons is because I've been watching hours and hours of Long Lost Family. I am absolutely in love with it. It's just one of those shows that makes you cry rivers but at the same time, fuzzily warms you up. Plus, it was the show that inspired me to write the post before. It's such a nice feeling watching families who have this missing person in their life be reunited and have the piece fit back into place. Some of them have been separated for more than 50 years as well.

Imagine being a mother and having to leave your child, usually at a very young age because you're just unable to bring him/her up, you're too young and you don't have the luxuries to provide them a good life. These mothers had to give up their child out of love, as much as it must've pained them to do so.

Yet, there are people who honestly in my own opinion, are heartless; simply throwing away babies at birth into trash cans, bags, left out in the cold, and even worse, cut up. It just doesn't sit with me. How could someone ever EVER ever have the heart to do that to a standard child, let alone a tiny baby, a gift from God, pure from any flaws, and knowing that that's your own child. Gah it just baffles me. Alright obviously I don't know the feelings of someone in that position. I can't say it might've been either easy or hard to do but really, where's the common sense. Leaving an innocent infant alone with near to nothing out there, when the real thing they deserve is to be in the arms of their mother, it's like leaving a child in the hands of the world isn't it. I assume it's terrifying really, having to be responsible for a child you know you can't have/don't want to have, plus assuming that you're most likely completely on your own; baby's father left and a family that either doesn't know or has completely shut you out. Still, I don't understand why they don't give the baby up for adoption instead. No matter how embarrassing (I assume) it is, the child deserves to live a life ahead. Maybe who knows, they'll get adopted by absolutely loving parents and have an amazing childhood and upbringing. I'm not saying life always works out that way though. In reality, there are many more older children still in care homes or orphanages still waiting for a home they could call their own.

The episode I'm currently watching as I type this up is what I think is the sweetest episode I've watched! Apparently up to the release of that episode, there haven't been a search done by both birth mother and father. Usually it's one or the other really. In turn, it makes the search ever more sweet. They seem like such nice souls as well. When Davina told them that their son had been found, the father absolutely burst into tears. So much so that he left the interview and had to have a good cry in a room before returning. Then, there's another story in the same episode of an army father who had to leave his daughter is Germany after being posted back to England. He had saved up coins to call his family back in Germany using a phone box up till he was shut out by his girlfriend's mother. After that though, he kept sending parcels of clothes and cards to his daughter in hopes that she would receive them. Unfortunately, she said that she never did as her mother had taken them away. How nice it is that even though he left, he still tried his hardest to keep in contact with his daughter even if she was in a whole different country.

Oddly, I've suddenly taken up an interest in building my own family tree and learning the names and origins of my ancestors and such. Okay not really odd considering the shows I'm watching but yeah.  It would definitely be cool to see pictures of them too if there are still some kept with my grandparents. Maybe I'd find an ancestor who'd look identical to me! On the same note, I'd love to work the same job as Davina and Nicky from Long Lost Family. Being able to help in the reconnection of families and being able to deliver the great news to them and seeing the joy splattered right across their faces is just amazing.